Been so long since i last last last update on my blog............................. REAL busy with my life!!! WORK WORK WORK NOTHING MORE BUT WORK!!!!! Feel like having so much to write but again don't know what to pen down...

Let's start with my work....

During my school days when comes to exam period i might caught with exam fever.... so even my work!! i was like feeling so unwell and down with cold, tummyache, stress and sometime even depression. Seriously i've been telling myself i am fine and i will be fine but actually i am not! i am SICK mentally physically and emotionally... Actually nothing should beats me down.. am sure i can do it but of course within my limits am sure. So am complaining about my work again so is it over the limits? Or am just too tired overall in my life? seriously i am doubting myself, i felt i don't understand myself even more.

Home.....

*cross my fingers* hopefully am settled with a shelter soon... after so long of running ups and down to the MP and HDB appeal of loan so on... and finally there's reply BUT something that kinda pissed me off is that bitch who broken up my family trying to be funny here!!! ARGHH if not for the sake of "give and take" for my family sake seriously i won't even want to give her an extra cents more.... i hate to curse but this time i m really cursing her without holding back anymore..... why is there such selfish ppl around i really don't understand. Over the years so much that i've gone thru due to the fact of what had happened to the family partly due to that woman and now i met her again which gave me hell like half of my life time!!! Can i KILL her? or shall i wait and see how her daughter suffer like i was before or even worse!!! I'm sorry to say this here not that i don't respect you but i really cannot tolerate this anymore.... Arghhhhhh i don't know what am i writting in here..... ok stop here.... Am very tired abt my family... i wanna feeled love.... Really!! will the day come??? am waiting still.....

Personal...

I'm a failure.... i do not know how to be happy, how to love myself more, how not to place others infront of me always, what to do then i can be happy, can i persue a dip. course soon? when can i trust someone again, have i not open my heart? When can i meet the one? Have i missed all the good ones? sigh.... cRApzZzzz....... ok i am EMO i admit.... shall stop here.... am tired.... off to bed..... hope to blog something nice coming up soon.... looking forward to my grandma's birthday coming on this Sunday... CIaoz